this will basically be the only place i can be real when no one’s aroundTumblr (3.0; @serayray)http://serayray.tumblr.com/<p>Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because you make it hard to breathe. Not sure why I can&#8217;t think of anyone else, even now, after all we&#8217;ve been through&#8230; I should hate you, but I don&#8217;t. I never will. I won&#8217;t ever admit to loving you romantically just cuz I know you&#8217;d never feel the same. It&#8217;s embarrassing that everyone sees what I try to hide so hard. I wish I was over you, but ever since I met you, that becomes more impossible to do every day. It&#8217;s weird that I truly do see you as just my brother and close friend, but the second you tell me we should be more I won&#8217;t say no. I don&#8217;t have to worry about that though cuz you never will. Consider me annoyed with myself cuz you obviously haven&#8217;t done this to me on purpose. I shall forever be in denial of loving you because how else will I be able to stay your &#8220;sis&#8221; happy for you when you get at all these other girls? You kiss my friends and even my own sister. What was I thinking letting you steal my first kiss? I don&#8217;t regret it but it also shouldn&#8217;t have happened. It shows how easily I&#8217;ll give in to you, I&#8217;ll give you what you want even if I know you&#8217;ll never do the same for me&#8230;</p>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/46818232433http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/46818232433Sun, 31 Mar 2013 23:19:44 -0400<p>so what did i not do i wonder? what was i supposed to do? even more i ponder&#8230;was i not smart, cool, or pretty enough? what does it mean to be your type? what does it even mean to have a type? it seems that all i do is disappoint which i guess means i really shouldn&#8217;t complain when the favor is returned  </p>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440433506http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440433506Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:42:09 -0500<p>i&#8217;m not sure where to go or why i&#8217;m here, what&#8217;s my purpose or worth in this world or what difference i make in anyone&#8217;s lives? even though i know i&#8217;m loved i just can&#8217;t feel it cuz i&#8217;ve laughed the pain away my entire life and so now it&#8217;s just over flowing and my brain can&#8217;t take it, who knows what&#8217;s left of my heart. i&#8217;m not even sure why i&#8217;m on here again cuz i remember deciding a long time ago that it&#8217;s not a good idea&#8230; yet here i am again. funny how when i feel alone i vent to the internet&#8230; supposedly private internet&#8230; </p>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440290535http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440290535Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:38:06 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4lhyorPQR1qdyxtgo1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440116860http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440116860Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:33:12 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/a1d7ef89c15b460c40018a2dfe732132/tumblr_mh066zeqw31rorp94o1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440083185http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440083185Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:32:17 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m26mffBZgB1qjmz65o1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440066941http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440066941Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:31:51 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/278cf1c65fe8cfad1a3823df4ec29978/tumblr_misq43mRHs1s1b422o1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440062150http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440062150Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:31:43 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mawa82Q0KQ1r89c9vo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440018821http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440018821Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:30:31 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/d74a9ef1ccbf1378123b9761958e96aa/tumblr_mh3m74dHmE1r1w4c4o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440009053http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44440009053Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:30:16 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/30068c6e2cc52b543160f66425584426/tumblr_mj0bqjvuNh1rvon16o1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44439979207http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44439979207Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:29:28 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/78b340ca290254ed382b6cb2f7f2d292/tumblr_mj216f3g6W1qgwqw9o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://funniest.1000notes.com/post/44437276619/my-lovely-followers-please-follow-this-blog" target="_blank">the-absolute-funniest-posts</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p class="gone">My lovely followers, please <strong><a href="http://goo.gl/1Wz2g" target="_blank">follow this blog</a></strong> immediately!</p> </blockquote>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44439886648http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/44439886648Sun, 03 Mar 2013 02:26:59 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/57d7091ee80466d5e864d12c9135d02a/tumblr_mi1aazQ0fa1roi4lco1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42830132338http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42830132338Mon, 11 Feb 2013 03:06:10 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/81241ee2a0638e724f460cffc6679531/tumblr_mg04bbgGKH1qzr04eo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42798176462http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42798176462Sun, 10 Feb 2013 19:25:04 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m8f6rnSkxn1qaq0xpo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42798136641http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42798136641Sun, 10 Feb 2013 19:24:34 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mbwaxvooh71qbwvp8o1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42798114770http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42798114770Sun, 10 Feb 2013 19:24:17 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_man8lx3H5H1r94hlxo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42797915866http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/42797915866Sun, 10 Feb 2013 19:21:46 -0500<p>I tell everyone I&#8217;ll be single forever, not because I believe it&#8217;s true&#8230; But because I want so badly to believe in a fairytale that I&#8217;m scared may never come true. I want to know my prince is out there but being 19 never had a bf or kissed a guy&#8230; It&#8217;s kinda hard to believe.</p>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/35026015786http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/35026015786Sun, 04 Nov 2012 20:34:29 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mc6uhnyV191rs8w78o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/35025699781http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/35025699781Sun, 04 Nov 2012 20:30:20 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9yc4sXObI1r3055wo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/35025312021http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/35025312021Sun, 04 Nov 2012 20:25:12 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mabybecsad1qfl9e4o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/35025125219http://serayray.tumblr.com/post/35025125219Sun, 04 Nov 2012 20:22:45 -0500